What do I do?
I’m moving in with him. I love him and he’s great to the kid. But under the surface… I still love him but dammit I miss her . I want her in my life. I don’t want drama, I don’t want longing, I don’t want the undeniable ache her presence brings, but I want her. Her laugh, her smile, her anger, the way she sees through me in ways he can’t.
Ahhhhhhjjghhhhhhhhh…fucking god dammit
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Why can’t I just be happy, why do I do this to myself.